Note: This post is not for people brand new to Human Design. I wouldn’t know where to begin to explain what Human Design is for those who aren’t already familiar. If you are new to Human Design, a quick Google search will help you more than I will.
Let’s get into it. I don’t know about you, but Human Design is both validating and frustrating. It’s blown up online, and so many people think they know how to interpret the charts. Most of what I see are blanket statements about generators. Generators are supposed to wait and respond to external stimuli. Generators are supposed to find what excites them & lights them up to be in correct alignment.
I’ve been studying Human Design for years. I have not invested in a high-ticket program, nor have I invested in a one-on-one coaching program. So maybe that’s why I’m still so confused. However, I find that I don’t want to pay anyone for that level, because I don’t trust them. I’m not quite sure if I question their ethics and morals, or perhaps just their competence. Since there are so many variables in a chart, I wonder how one person could truly understand all of the combinations. Is it just me?
In the online space, Human Design is a hot topic. Very trendy right now. I find that most of the information on people’s Instagrams, podcasts, or workshops only divulges surface-level information. They want to hook your interest so that you buy their program or mastermind. I read things that resonate, but I’m always left feeling like something is missing. I’m wondering if other people are also experiencing this? Here are some of my thoughts through the lens of my own chart.
Generators are Creators
People say generators are builders who are meant to do what makes them joyful. Spend the day doing what lights them up, use up all their energy, and then get a restful night’s sleep and be recharged in the morning. Doesn’t this just seem like human behavior? I find myself still confused about what it means to be a generator, or how to be a generator in the correct way.
The whole “being lit up” is misleading in itself because that statement is subjective. It is said that Generators are aligned when they feel a sense of satisfaction. It feels a little confusing because satisfaction feels different to me than being excited, you know, being lit up. I’m supposed to be excited and satisfied at the same time. Does doing household chores light me up? No. Does having a clean home bring satisfaction? Yes. Someone once said instead of thinking about being lit up, ask yourself if you have energy for something. A yes or no question to yourself. “Do I have 10 minutes’ worth of energy to spruce up the living room, or put the dishes in the dishwasher?” Yes or No? This resonated with me.
I experience different states of satisfaction. The everyday state of satisfaction— what do I feel like doing, what do I have the energy for right now? And a higher state of satisfaction— where I come alive by doing something empowering like dancing or actively expressing myself in other ways. And a satisfaction state somewhere in the middle of the two—feeling really yummy and completely content. I typically feel this one when I’m relaxing in the hot springs, at the beach, or in a foot soak session. There are many types of things that bring me into the middle & upper level on my satisfaction spectrum. Depending on what I’m actually doing, it feels a little bit different each time. But the thread through the two higher satisfactions is that the feeling is memorable. The more mundane tasks and chores are necessary for life. I don’t enjoy them enough for them to be memorable, but at least I can ask myself if I have energy for them at that time. If I don’t, I move on. The tasks aren’t going anywhere. If I do the things that I actually want to do first, then I find I have more energy for the other not-so-fun, but necessary tasks.
Every Generator is Different
I chose to only write about my chart variables, because, well, I have lived them. There are so many combinations; how could anyone really have mastery-level knowledge around them all? Maybe one day, someone will prove me wrong. Or maybe there is just a ton of gatekeeping happening. Either way, it’s frustrating.
My Chart
- Type: Generator
- Profile: 3/6
- Strategy: Respond
- Undefined centers: Identity & Solar Plexus
Generators With A 3/6 Profile
As we know, a 3/6 profile is the path of trial and error, eventually leading to a wise role model. It sounds hopeful that one day we will carry wisdom that we can share with others. Apparently, the first 30 years of our lives have been one experiment after another. Generators have a consistent source of energy that compels them to keep going. I have felt slightly cursed with this never-ending, persistent energy to keep going in what feels like the wrong direction all the time. I have found this daunting because I have a tendency to stay in the wrong places too long. I don’t want to be a failure, so I stay and try to make things work. It’s like my identity is tied to finding success, and when success feels elusive, I feel defeated again.
Society or our parents tell us that being a quitter is bad. With a 3/6 profile, we are supposed to be “quitting” things that aren’t for us. As much as being a rebel is fun, it also takes tremendous amounts of courage and faith. Choosing courage every time I start something new isn’t easy; it’s frustrating. The opposite of satisfying, which is what we generators are supposed to be feeling. When I found Human Design and learned of my 3/6 profile, it helped me feel validated. It helped me feel like I was doing what I was supposed to be doing. Instead of failing, I was learning. Learning what works, learning what doesn’t work. My life’s theme in Gene Keys is Revolution. Well, how can I start a revolution if I’m not living different experiences and know what needs to change?
Generators With An Undefined Identity Center
Because a generator 3/6 wasn’t fun enough, I also needed to struggle with knowing my identity and knowing who I am. Since my identity center is undefined, it is said that I don’t possess consistent energy in this center. Perhaps even amplifying other people’s identities when I’m around them. I always felt like I knew who I was when I was by myself. As soon as I was in the presence of someone else, I became confused and unsure. I would see someone else’s path, and I would try to make it mine. I wanted success. They found success, so I tried to copy and paste for my success. It never worked. Mostly this is tied to my career path.
I try, and I try, and I try, and it never works. Well, what could be the problem? I think the problem is conditioning from childhood, our parents, and society. Being a child and growing up should be an exploration, but for many of us, it felt like battling in an arena. Rather than being guided, we were controlled. Rather than being supported, we were buried. I always knew who I was when I was alone, but bring one person into the room, and I lost who I was. Being alone was the only place I truly felt safe. It is said that your undefined centers are where you hold wisdom.
In my late 30s, I finally declared that I would allow any identity that wasn’t mine to fall away. I went to a healing retreat and made this my intention at the retreat as well as in life. I do have to say, I have been feeling like myself more and more these days. I have let go of many career path identities: Reiki practitioner, sound healing practitioner, mental health therapist, somatic practitioner, & fitness instructor. And these are just from the last decade. I watched other people that I trained alongside have success in each one of these paths. For me, they never worked. Now, I did find the right direction in mental health, as I’ve obsessed with mental health since birth. Now I’m finding that my path looks a little different than I could have anticipated, which means it must be mine. I no longer force myself to look like someone else.
Generators With An Undefined Solar Plexus Center
As generators, we make decisions from our sacral, our gut. The body responds with “Uh-huh”—yes or Uh-uh—”no”. An undefined solar plexus can amplify other people’s emotions. Maybe the emotions you are feeling aren’t even yours to feel. I have always been an emotional person, and I definitely remember that I started managing my parents’ emotions when I was younger. I could feel what they were feeling, and it’s a skill that I kept using throughout my life. Other humans kinda felt like threats to me. I was always scared of something bad happening to me. I never wanted to make anyone feel bad or feel pain, so I think I spent a lot of time being in other people’s emotions rather than my own. If faced with a decision, if I was alone in my own energy, I would probably immediately know the answer. I wouldn’t feel responsible for anyone else’s feelings. In the presence of others, their emotions and reactions would cause my own judgement to be cloudy. Deconditioning this learned behavior has been a work in progress. When I notice myself feeling overwhelmed or overly emotional in the presence of others, I try to remember to ask myself, is this mine? Or is it someone else’s?
Lasting Thoughts
Blanket statement advice doesn’t work because everyone’s chart is completely unique to them. You have to view the whole chart with a broader view. Studying our own chart helps us feel validated and empowered. It also helps us name something that we thought was something wrong about us. It makes me feel more normal in a way. Even though it highlights my uniqueness. I find Human Design to be a beautiful blueprint, and I have learned the value of using it as a tool to become more embodied rather than something to force. You already are your chart. If you see gifts in your chart that you don’t feel like you’ve embodied yet, know that studying Human Design is a journey. It is an unfolding.
When I first discovered Human Design, it was a whole new world. I was so lost in life, trying to find my way in the dark forest with a small lantern. I was searching for any clue that might tell me who I am. Why I’m here on Earth. It’s easy to dive into the deep end and end up feeling like you are drowning in all the information of your chart. Use it as a tool and practice discernment. It’s one of those things where you learn about it, study it, and leave it. Take pauses. You aren’t quitting. You are pausing. You are integrating. You are learning. You are unfolding. You are becoming who you already are.
Talk soon,
Stephanie
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